A little lesson from my life.

As I just recently passed the one year anniversary of my quitting my job, I've spent a lot of time thinking about what I'm doing now and why.

I was not blessed with the early childhood desire to just be mom and stay home, so this transition has been a lot harder then I'd first imagined. Being around two innately selfish creatures 24/7 has made me realize my own selfishness and just how huge it is. Even though many view nursing as a fairly selfless profession, there is still much to be gained from it. People tend to view you with respect and admiration, 80% of your patients are grateful, and you see quick, if not immediate, results from your work. Parenting, I'm finding, is truly the most selfless job. The world, irregardless of recent advances in this area, still looks down upon stay at home moms; your children are rarely grateful until they are no longer children, and you only see the results of your work when your children are having children. Needless to say, I've been missing some aspects of working outside the home. However, God continues to give me grace in spite of my overwhelming selfishness and reminds me that though the work I did was important, the work I'm doing now has an eternal effect. I can always tell when I'm at my most selfish point... it's when the children get on my nerves the most and I act toward them in exactly the way I'm teaching them not to be towards others. I just need to daily humble myself and allow God to meet my needs instead of me trying to meet them for Him. For when I am humble then I can truly cast my cares on the One who cares for me (thank you, Pastor Mark for such a deep insight into 1 Pet 5:7).

Just a little snippet of the lesson I'm learning as of late!