Too long

It's been way too long since I've posted anything and yet I'm not sure what to say. Since my last Dr's visit( Jan 14th) I've been A LOT more tired which, in winter months at least, leads to some depression. I get frustrated that I'm not doing anything productive, discouraged that I seem to be gaining weight by just looking at food, and then have no energy to do the things I think I should be doing. I feel like I'm living my trimesters all mixed up. I should feel like this during my first trimester and then start getting some pep and enthusiasm back in the second. Not so!  I don't think it has helped with my acceptance of this pregnancy either. We have soo much up in the air right now with Kyle's job hunt, our living situation, church, etc that I wish I could just ignore being pregnant until all that was settled. It's just not possible though. God keeps reminding me that His timing is perfect and His provisions are always enough, but I often forget or chose not to focus on that. 

I have figured out that a protein bar snack in the middle of the morning or afternoon goes a long way to keeping me going. I have more energy and enthusiasm to entertain/train my children. Dean is recently very into basketball and loves to play with the ball and hoop he got for Christmas. He also likes to watch a game on TV every night while I make dinner. It's amazing what he picks up just by watching. Dean is starting to put sentences together and is communicating easier. He still tends to lash out when not understood, but I think things are getting better. Abi is doing her darnedest to keep up with Dean. She is learning new words by the day and can follow simple instructions if she so chooses. She is much more strong willed then Dean and I sense one of her life-lessons will be putting others before herself. It doesn't help of course that she has daddy wrapped around her finger and gets almost anything she wants. *sigh* They really are growing quickly and I can't believe that just a year ago Abi was just a wee baby still not rolling or crawling or anything!

Well the natives are awake and probably looking for milk! Happy Valentines to all!